I started my new job two weeks ago. My first night alone I ended up being $17 short somehow. Not a huge deal, but I have this weird need to the best at my job and I was beating myself up over it. The whole perfectionist thing is only job-related, oddly. I’m not nearly as much of an anal neat-freak at home (if you saw my desk right now you’d agree, there’s lipgloss everyyywwheeerree) so I have no idea why at work I’m like “EVERYTHING MUST BE PERFECT!” It has gotten better since then, thankfully. I still get insanely stressed out at the end of the night. I have a lot of stuff to do and most of it has to be done within the last hour and I just get all crazy and frenzied then. It doesn’t help that most of my coworkers don’t give a shit about their job and have a tendency to screw up or leave shit everywhere and it makes my job harder.
There are two perks about my job, though. One is I get to wear my own clothes (sadly I have to return most of the clothes I ordered from Old Navy, apparently the size I usually wear is meant for six foot tall 500 pound women in Old Navy land). The second is that if there’s an open channel I can put on whatever I want and put it on the TV in the office and watch it while I do my work. Golden Girls reruns ftw!
So, I recently decided I have to do something about my weight or I am going to get diabetes and have my feet chopped off and die. I started counting calories almost a month ago and I have lost 13 pounds. I AM PRETTY EXCITED ABOUT THAT. I still need to watch my sugar, but I think the counting calories thing is a good start. I’ve tried it before and only made it two weeks before I went back to my compulsive over-eating and binge eating habits, so almost a month is amazing to me so far. I give myself one day a week to “cheat” and not count, but even then I still don’t go totally crazy. I went to the buffet with my bff this morning and I feel like I ate a lot less than I normally would have. It helps that my new job has me running around a lot now (okay, by running I mean a lot more standing/walking/rushing around trying to get shit done) and it is helping burn calories.
I got up super early this morning to run an errand and now I am reallllllly tired. Time to go lotion up (my skin is super dry lately, ugh) and take my vitamins and SLEEP.